January 2012
8 posts
an excerpt from my letter to kevin:
“…I’m finding it hard to stay focused, in the sense that there is so much in the world that begs my attention. Photography, poetry, my body, my friends, my desire for self-directed learning, the world—so overcome by so many obstacles and with so many “issues” which require thought and desire action. I’m really lucky in the sense that I see...
how to sleep better oooo →
November 2011
14 posts
i am egregiously, terribly, terribly, very much so offended. 7:13 on wednesday night. 8 days. that is far longer than ever before and without explanation. i won’t forgive you for a while, not even if you have the perfect reason. which, of course, you will. or maybe you won’t, maybe this is the reason. maybe this is just what it is now. that would be a strange relief. i know now, but...
i am not an introverted person. sometimes this is a bad thing which traps me in ways i would never imagine or guess by hearing the word “extrovert.”
Yo crecí dentro de un árbol: The lights always... →
sodisarming:
The lights always stay the same in a town you remember. The lights stay the same. And you are cradled in their color, forever fifteen years old, standing beneath the great pine tree. Spotlit, falling. You remember how he stood there, bent over at his waist, leaning forward, arms outstretched,…
i have such a good fucking life
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“The television screen is the retina of the mind’s eye. Therefore, the television...”
– Videodrome
(dir. David Cronenberg, 1983)
October 2011
4 posts
“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you...
– Benjamin Disraeli
"I began to think how ridiculous it is that our...
—From Don’t Give Me What I Want by Terry Tom Brown
i guess it's weird. because in lots of ways i...
August 2011
5 posts
two more nights at home. i kind of want to sleep at home tomorrow night and still have fun. i hope that happens. i love my bed so much, i’m going to miss its perfect white fluffy queen sized self. i hope my sister is nice about giving it back when i come home on breaks.
I don’t like being a public dick to you or to anyone, but if you really said some of the things i heard you said about me, you deserve it for being a liar while I covered for your fucking broken ass. If you didn’t, well then I’m the dick, and it’s about time.
July 2011
47 posts
sincerity is the new irony
i really cannot comprehend why i allow myself to feel the way i do, or care the way i do. i think i have this underlying hope/belief that everyone is a good person who is not going to try and hurt me. but sadly, that is not the case.
it’s really hard to have to actively not trust people. i guess its easier for some people.
AH JESUS IM SO SCARED.
i just want.
someone tell satan that i want my fucking swag back
tonight was good. i’ve been thinking about a lot of things. i’m being vague because i’m tired, but i really am happy with where i am with my life. i’ve made a couple of mistakes, i have certain instances which border on regrets, but there are moments, hours, days when i feel so goddamn happy that it makes every uncomfortable moment worth it. i have good friends. good,...
“You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists...”
– Albert Camus
starlingdarling:
Sex while high is amazing.
